New Year Goals

About a year and a half ago my mom's friend read my Tarot cards. She knew a lot of things about my future before I could even have an inkling of them. She gave me some advice about making goals. She said that when you set goals for your self you shouldn't say "I want too.." or "I wish..." you should declare "I will..." It's the whole visualization thing. So here's what I will do this year.

I will have my work published.
I will really, actually sell pieces.
I will feel good about myself.
I will feel confident about my photography.
I will be more social, more outgoing.
I will put myself out there.
I will be noticed.
I will have a show of my photos.
I will love him to my fullest.
I will learn and get all that I can out of my education.

Things I want for Christmas

-the Canon 5D Mark II
-a renewed Flickr Pro Account
-to sell things on my Etsy
-vintage cameras and/or a fully functional manual 35mm camera
-my boyfriend back in LA
-a consistent photography style
-to feel like I have a home somewhere
-a 50mm lens


But mostly, that you're enjoying a Happy Holiday Season.

I feel an aching like something in my life really needs to change. I'm not sure what, but something. The more I think about it, I think I just need more in my life. I don't know.

Yes We Did.

from Noah Kalina

I think I have determined what I want to be as a photographer, honest. Lately the work I'm most compelled by seems almost too intimate. I think once or twice I've managed to be honest with my work, but it's hard. Laying yourself out to be judged. If a work is wholly yourself where are you left if it fails?

I hope I'll find out.

I wish I could feel like I was a part of something. Anything.

I'm just trying to be okay.